I've lived more in my head than I've lived in real life.

Most of my suffering comes from my own head.

Most of my enjoyment comes from a delusional reality that I've made up in which doesn't actually exist.

I tend to overanalyze events that have happened over and over again, replaying conversations that already happened.

I also practice conversations that will probably never happen.

I like to imagine success in my head of places that I'll be and it literally gives me a feeling of excitement or dopamine as though I've actually gone out and achieved that thing it's not just daydreaming it's like running full simulations full scenarios are like a future that doesn't actually exist because of this, I feel like real life is secondary to the one that I've created in my head.

And this, saying this stuff out loud makes me sound almost schizophrenic or something, but I have a feeling a lot of other people relate to this.

In your head, you know, you control the outcomes.

There's no rejection, there's no embarrassment or failure.

you kind of get what you want.

You can even be funnier, smarter.

You can be a more confident person.

You can sort of detach from the pressure of whatever it is you want to do when you live in your head.

And that's, what's so nice about it.

And that's why it's like, it's so easy to fall into that trap.

You know what I mean?

But there, there's a hitting cost to it.

You know, you miss real opportunities because you hesitate too long.

Your confidence, it stays low because you're not getting the real feedback.

And everything is like fake dopamine.

And so life starts to feel dull and it's not necessarily that it is it's just you're not you're not trying to optimize in your life you know you start identifying as an overthinker and this becomes some type of excuse to avoid actual action actual change and so you convince yourself that you're preparing when you're actually avoiding.

But for me, I reached this weird realization moment where you imagined entire phases of life that never actually have been lived out.

And so you start to look back and you start to notice how little you actually did in comparison to what you imagined.

And that's the issue.

Feeling like time has passed, but nothing has really happened.

And I'm trying to actively make a change with that.

I'm trying to turn my visualizations from imaginary to almost more of like a manifestation where i'm putting energy towards trying to actualize that and turn it into my real life reality that is that's what you need to do you need to culminate that so there's a turning point right like you you have to understand that clarity doesn't doesn't come from thinking it actually comes from doing i recently made a video about this where i talked about you know therapy and how i think therapy the problem with it is that all you do is over analyze you don't actually take action and so you sort of ruminate on your thoughts and that causes you to oftentimes be more in your problems and you don't take any practical steps at making change in your life so so that's the problem right Real life is always going to be messier than your thoughts.

But that's okay.

There's sort of a peace in accepting this.

You have to embrace it.

Those are my thoughts.

Thank you guys for watching.