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it's not only about debuting though a message to my younger self just like an older sister

or just a friend oh

so young like what is she talking about oh this anxiety is for a reason i don't have any regrets

hi everybody my name is yunjin

and i am from a girl group called la seraphim

But today I'm introducing myself not as a member of a girl group, but as a host of a podcast.

I am pleased to announce that I am hosting my first ever podcast with Stan A called Thinking Thoughts.

I've been wanting to do a podcast for the longest time.

I finally have made this dream come true.

Thank you so much for joining me.

Thank you.

So why did you call it HMM?

HMM stands for Huzz Memo.

And it's like, you know, like a thinking sound.

So I found it perfect for this because in this podcast, I'm just going to be talking about what's been on my mind,

how I feel about things, my opinions that nobody asked about, because there are a lot of random ideas that come to me in the middle of the night,

like things that I've seen or heard or felt or simply, you know, just like the mood that I was in that day.

I've always loved to document those things.

I really want this podcast to just feel like I'm sharing the notes I've always just kept for myself.

After you guys listen, I would love for you to share your thoughts too.

So today, I thought

that it'd be best to start off with my story some of you may know

but i debuted in 2022 in a group called le seraphim

but me before debuting in le seraphim i was born in korea

but moved to the states at like eight months old i'm

korean -american i spent most of my life growing up in the states i actually grew up in wisconsin

and before i moved to new york at like 10 ish

and then spent the next like seven years there i grew up loving storytelling

and it was my dream to become a storyteller in whatever form

so i had dreamt of becoming like a writer

and then i dreamt of becoming an artist like a painter in visual arts

and then i wanted to write for movies

and then i wanted to become a musical actress

and then I discovered like songwriting and I picked up my first guitar

which I stole from my dad started songwriting fell in love

with music kind of kept it as my own little secret dream

and then I discovered k -pop

and I fell in love with how I could combine all of what is me into one career.

I dreamt of becoming a K -pop idol because I felt really really inspired by the creative universe that K -pop has.

My Korean -American -ness, my Korean -ness, my love of music, my love of being on stage,

my love of dancing even though I couldn't dance at the time

and the impact you could have on so many like identities was

so big to me because i felt

so empowered as a korean -american kid growing up watching k -pop get huge in the states

so i hope

that in a similar sense this podcast can resonate with people

who feel like they might be alone in these thoughts

or feelings or worries that they have

so I tell myself these things as I debut as a

podcast host things I wish I knew before debuting it's not

only about debuting though I feel like it's just like a

message to my younger self my teenage years maybe my early 20s

and just like an older sister

or just a friend I hope this can touch the first thing

that I would like to tell my younger self is

that sometimes you will worry because you have no worries

and sometimes you will worry because all you have are worries sometimes I get lost in my thoughts way too much.

I struggle to validate that version of me because I just wonder if Am I supposed to be like this?

Am I even on the right track?

I definitely have those times.

Even looking back on my life, there have been several times where I really did not think

that there was going to be an end to this tunnel in this darkness.

But some of the times, my head would just be so empty.

That was my biggest concern.

I remember talking to my friends and being like, Guys, I'm so concerned.

I'm so worried about myself because I have no worries

so it's just like that it's like you think you're okay

and then you're not and then you think you're not okay

and then you are the bottom line is

that nobody really has it figured out until we are in the coffin

and even when you become an adult it's gonna feel like at first you know what you're doing

and then you start doing it

and then you realize you don't know what the you're doing

we're still kids this is our first time doing life even the people

that you look up to it's their first time doing experiencing this thing called life

so don't stress out about feeling like you don't have it

figured out okay the second thing i would say is believe in the blessed unrest

when you are scared to do something it means you are

on the right track there's a letter i think it was

that martha graham wrote to agris demille

that is where i first heard of the blessed unrest here

let me read it to you there is a vitality a life force a quickening

that is translated through you in action and

because there is only one of you in all time this expression is unique

if you block it it will never exist through any other medium and be lost.

It is not yours to determine how good it is, nor how it compares with other expressions.

Keep the channel open.

No artist is ever pleased.

There is no satisfaction whatever at any time.

There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others.

It's one of my favorite things to think about

and it's one of the most comforting things

that I have come to learn after debuting I always put

so much pressure on myself to only do things

when they're 100 % good

but it's not about being 100 % perfect it's about doing it anyway nothing exists before you make it

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and what's important is

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that you make it a lot of the times the biggest turning points in my life happened

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because i chose to do it even

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when i was a little scared i was terrified of moving to korea

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and chasing my dreams and completely just transforming my life

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but there was something in me

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that made me feel like oh this anxiety is for a reason

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and there's like a destination to this anxiety

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which is kind of like what the blessed unrest i think

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is talking about I remember going into the audition I was nervous

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and scared but at the same time I had this gut feeling

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that this was just the right direction

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and I feel like every time those two feelings converge the

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result on the other end is is what I knew

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and wanted to happen but like that doesn't mean

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that like every single time you're going to be met with a good result

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i'm gonna be so honest there are plenty of things

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that i regret like i have this one song called blessing

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in disguise oh perfect title like there's an intro to it with me like narrating something

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that i'd come up with on the spot it's like oh

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something about me getting to the airport oh incheon to jf

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or jfk to incheon your boarding starts now or something like

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that it's like the like the PA I don't know I

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felt anxious about it I was like oh I don't know

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if this is right and then I just did it

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because hey creative action but um yeah to be completely honest it's something

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that I slightly regret because I just I don't know it's yeah anyway what matters is

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that I did it and I expressed what I thought was right at the time

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if there was something that I could say to

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that Yun Jin from like two three three years ago yeah just letting you know

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that your good feeling was in fact correct you never know until you try

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so I applaud you for taking that risk anyway

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Next thing is that everybody has their own pace and that does not mean yours is wrong or inferior.

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This is a really hard thing to internalize, especially at a young age, especially in a time like right now where everything is

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so fast on service level it looks like success comes so

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so fast it's really easy to get lost in the anxiety

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that oh the next person has to be me

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because everybody around me is everybody online is why am I

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so behind oh feeling behind I know that feeling

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so well I remember being in middle school some of my

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friends around me they were like oh I want to be

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an environmental scientist I want to be a data analyst I want to do musical theater

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and I had this one friend who had been doing musical

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theater since like their whole life they were one of my best friends

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and I had also loved to sing at a young age

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and we would do like choir together we would perform at talent shows together too like I'd play guitar

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but deep inside I also knew that I wanted to do theater

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but it just scared me so much to try

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and I felt like at the time it was already way too late for me to start

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because other people around me had started ballet at the age of three

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and started musical theater at the age of seven

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and low -key it felt kind of embarrassing to say

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or like to even audition

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and say it's my first musical theater audition ever in front

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of my best friend who has been doing this for her entire life

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but um everybody has their own pace because i started then i challenged myself

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and listened to my gut and just followed what i wanted truly deep within my heart

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and um did it anyway and i'm so glad that i did

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because honestly if

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if i hadn't started musical theater i think i wouldn't have

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believed in the power of like challenging yourself i think

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that experience really helped me realize that don't be fooled by the speed and the pace of the system

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okay on people there are more people

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that love you than you realize is one of my definitions of love love is sympathy

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and gentleness in the most unexpected direction there have been

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so many times in my life where love has

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that kind of unexpected warmth and sympathy has found me

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and it has definitely made me realize that oh even if it looks like there's a lot of cynical

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perceptions there is always going to be someone who sees me

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for what I am my friends in high school they brought me

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so much strength and they showed me that I was a good person

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and I was worthy of love they even to this day they tell me like oh we knew

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that you were going to be a star we saw how passionate

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and how in love with what you do you were

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when you couldn't see it yourself but we saw

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that in your eyes and we knew

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that was going to happen yeah I think it's just like every time I did something they would be

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so supportive they would tell me how great I am

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if my leap towards my dream was the start the catalyst what kept

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that dream going was friendship you can't see the back of your head without a mirror

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and it's the same thing you cannot see yourself without another person i think it's our responsibility to do

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that for each other

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because sometimes we can't see it ourselves sometimes you just need

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to believe something without evidence just stop feeling alone just know

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that you are more lovable than you think you are sometimes we just need friends to awaken

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that realization inside of us and if you don't have

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that person become that person and who knows someone who has been feeling

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that same way might show up oh

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and also on people there's just one thing

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that I would like to add every person you meet you

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will meet for a reason I'm a big believer in

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that everything happens for a reason but

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that includes people I am a true believer in

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that every person in your life comes to you to teach

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you something it could be like a taxi driver it can be a person that you just bump into on the street.

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It can be a girl that you meet in London and become friends with, which is a true story.

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Every experience is part of the plot.

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Each person could just be a sentence in that chapter.

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People come and go and it's okay to let someone into your life

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and give them all that you have and then them not be a part of the story anymore.

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But you gave your 100 % and that doesn't disappear.

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That's still in the story.

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That's still a part of you.

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That's still part of what you experienced.

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So I don't want you to ever regret or feel too much of a loss because that's not a loss.

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There's no losing when your goal is to experience.

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And I think that is a very powerful statement.

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But I think it also needs to be applied to the people that you meet.

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and the people that you love if there's one thing

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that i want to tell my younger self is to keep being delusional one thing

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that i am very proud of myself for is

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that ever since i was a kid i was extremely delusional

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and i think i think i have something in here this

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is like my old old sketchbook old sketchbook i used to

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do this stuff all the time like i would manifest things

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this is um what is this this is 2021 it's like one of the sketches

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or i don't even know what to call this this is

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my life i have succeeded i bring all my dreams to life i am present i bring others joy

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and help them grow i am real i change the world

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and have a big influence in bettering the world i express

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my thoughts with confidence i am strong nobody judges me

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and i do not mind those that do I am patient

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and allow myself happiness I did this quite often though from

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what I remember I think being delusional is is such a great way of living this life imagine the outrageous

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because there is something so powerful about just believing

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that you can do it no matter what even

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if there's no substantial evidence is so it's crazy because there are people out there who are less qualified than you,

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but are doing what they are doing because they were delusional and just had the confidence to try.

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I think it's one of the first things we are robbed of when we become members of society and grow into adulthood.

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I think if there's one thing that we should not let go of is imagination.

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And to my younger self, I want to thank you for being delusional in the right ways.

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So now as I wrap this episode up, I would like to say one thing to my younger self.

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And this is just also to me right now.

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Write it down.

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Record.

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Document.

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Remember who you are through creation.

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The reason why I started keeping notes is because drawing,

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writing things down, writing lyrics making music was my way of remembering myself

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because nobody can truly remember nobody knows you other than you there are things

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that only you can remember and through creation

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or through documentation we can keep today's version of me alive somewhere

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and this is something that i've written before debuting i want to be someone who doesn't forget

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or doesn't let something be forgotten i don't want to let

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myself disappear i think i want to create to preserve myself

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and to me i think this can be my form of

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self -love listening to myself i want to remember this why

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do what i do why i want to keep doing what i'm doing

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because if i don't i'm afraid i will lose myself

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and the girl i missed from years before don't do it to prove something

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or to display a persona of the person you want to become do it for yourself

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and the person you already are 2021 november 28th

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so nearly five years later i am feeling the same thing

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and i hope that this podcast is a way for me to preserve myself

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and my thoughts and all these memories

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but hopefully inspire you guys to also start documenting your life

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and remembering memories that you will want to bring back

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or want to think of again in the future

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so um today i shared some of the things i've learned throughout my life

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so far 24 years down the line just a couple of

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my thoughts you know people who are like twice my age are probably thinking like oh

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so young like what is she talking about

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but yeah it was just some things

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that i wish i knew back then it would have been

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nice maybe i would have worried a little less maybe it would have taken less detours

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but um that's just part of being human um trialing

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and failing i was doing the best

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that i could like everybody is doing their best right now

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and i'm just really grateful for all those experiences

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because i truly think that they made who i am today i don't have

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any regrets although i don't know a couple a couple maybe

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mishaps as i was talking today i did kind of feel like especially reading

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that last journal entry i think whatever or everything

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that i said today not only applies to my younger self

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but also myself right now maybe someone who's listening today might have needed them too

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and i hope they do so yeah

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that brings us to the end of today's memo um one question

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that i have for everybody who's listening is what season of life are you guys in right now

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and if there was one thing you could tell your younger self what would it be bye see you next episode

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I'll see you next time.

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