Shadowing Practice: life update - Learn English Speaking with Video

Yo, what's up guys?

It's your boy Pan.

It's been a minute.

Well, it's actually been more than a minute.

It's been one year.

Damn, that time really flew by.

But I'm back and I'm gonna start posting again and I'm here to give you guys an update on everything.

Well, I'll try my best because a lot of things happens in one year, especially in my life.

But hey, I'm here in the middle of Central Park.

A beautiful day and I got my matcha here.

Not being performative, nothing like that.

Just, you know, it's on some chill shit.

I'm gonna talk about what happened with Pear, what I'm doing currently and just some thoughts I have from all the stuff I've learned in the past year.

I don't know why I still have my air problems.

Hold on.

All right.

So I want to start this off by saying I am no longer relatable.

And that is something I had to come to the realization of because I started off this channel being very relatable.

You know, I went to a very mid-tier school.

People don't really know about.

I was really good at school.

I was kind of, you know, not the usual CS student, but I was able to land good jobs and, you know, make money and live in a good city right now.

And that's like a story that I always really liked in life as just the underdog story, you know, We're rooting for the person who is not expected to win because of their background,

because of where they come from.

And, you know, just the fact that they're different from the usual people who do this certain thing, right?

Whatever it is.

However, I don't think I am the underdog anymore.

You know, I grew up raised by a single mom and my big brother and we were broke as fuck.

We were living off government subsidy for most of my life and that paid for my school and everything until I graduated.

A shout out to the Canadian government.

I was also not good at school because I just didn't care.

I was just playing League of Legends all day.

You know, I barely spoke English because I grew up learning French.

I was kind of just doing whatever I wanted.

And that's been the story of my life.

And it's still me to this day.

However, because of everything I've been going through, it has, I guess, set me apart from the norm.

I've worked at all these good companies, earned a decent amount of money.

I've gained a certain amount of freedom, financial freedom, geographical freedom, and also relationship freedom.

Being able to choose who your friends are and who you interact with.

And kind of alongside working on my like intellect, like being good at engineering and building businesses and all this stuff.

I also worked a lot of my creativity, you know, making videos, artistic side and my social side of being able to make friends and being charismatic, interacting with people.

I would say I'm a pretty well-rounded person right now.

That doesn't, you know, mean I'm perfect.

I feel like there's still a lot of stuff I want to do and improve upon.

I don't know if this matters to you guys.

It's just like something that was important to me because at the beginning of this channel, a lot of it was, I felt like very relatable to a lot of my audience.

But it's just, it's no longer the case.

I want you guys to be aware of that.

What you expect me to be is probably not who I am anymore.

And this kind of has been a thing for me since forever, basically.

When I was younger, I always wanted to become a YouTuber or streamer.

Back then in middle school, like people would be like, what the hell is, what's a YouTuber?

You know, that's not like a real job or whatever.

And when I went to become an actor in China for a year People were also like yo, why why would you go to China?

Like what are you doing?

And then when I came back and did computer science people would say the same shit like oh Why would you leave?

You know acting and all this potential to to do computer science

And then when I started doing YouTube again with coding content people were also like what is this?

This is cringe and when I started getting you know really good trigger warning jobs

and I was earning better money people who worked at these

places were also like oh why why are you doing social

media stuff like just be a software engineer you know

so it's like throughout my entire life it's just people trying

to kind of like box me in to these certain categories

and it was the same thing when i went to california

and when i left california

and my my really good job at tesla to move to new york people were like why are you quitting

so much money why would you quit working at tesla to

go to new york to be a youtuber you know people just can't comprehend it

because they have never experience a different perspective.

And it's the same thing

when I quit my really good job at Coinbase in New York and moved to SF to build my own company.

People were like, why would you do something like that?

Like, why would you give up such a good job for a risk of this and that?

And you know, I left Hair, the business I was working to do streaming

and this is like an update I haven't told you guys

about I've been live streaming for the past five months

and people were were like why would you do that right

so it's just it's a reoccurring theme of people telling you what you should

and should not do and me just doing whatever I want

and I think that is probably the most important thing you should get out of life is

that you should stick to what you want to do your interests your heart your intuition

and try to block out all these all this noise

that people are telling you to to to do this and

that because really these people they don't know any better than you you know

if i had listened to these people i would have never

did fear of science to begin with i would have never

did youtube i would have never did any of anything i did today

and be where i'm at today

so i'm explaining to you guys this to sort of let

y'all understand how I kind of operate my philosophy on life

and what I value

because most of my content here on this channel has been about at the beginning it was like skits

and school content right like getting internships and jobs

and then it kind of turned into more vlog style

when I moved to New York and my life in New York

and then it turned to like startup stuff

when I was working on my startup so my channel is really more of a documentation, all these different things that I do throughout my life.

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And, you know, some people will say that is I live a very privileged life.

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I, you know, do what I want and all of this, but you know, it's like a certain way to see it.

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For me personally, I think my biggest privilege is being born in the U.S and not needing visa to live here.

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And also having a good family situation, even though it was just my mom and my big brother, but it was very healthy.

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So my family situation growing up

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and being born in the u.s is my two biggest privilege

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everything else i think also maybe you know being six five

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and handsome but hey

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that is something everybody can work on you know you can work on becoming better looking now i was chopped

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when i was younger okay and look at me now i'm still chopped now

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but what i'm trying to say is you know you can do a lot of different things in life

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if you just work hard at it and

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if you're passionate about it interested that's what allows you to put in

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that hard work to discipline whatever to make whatever you want come true you know

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if something doesn't work you you can go on to the next thing

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and you have to not be afraid to fail in front of other people

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so in regards to pair the company i was working on previously i left pair

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and it's now just fully in the hands of naeng my previous co-founder there's

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so many details to that situation and it's kind of hard to reveal all of

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that it would literally take an entire video of 40 minutes

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and i feel like it's not that interesting

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so i'll just give a high level overview i've been trying

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to think about pinpoint a singular reason as to why i left

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and it's kind of hard to do that but

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if i had to pick one it would be

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because i felt like i couldn't be myself anymore

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but essentially at the time people were mad

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because i made a tweet say i quit my 300k a

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year job people who are envious of like their dream job i'm quitting they're mad

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and you know people who don't like youtubers influencers they're mad

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and you know just people who don't understand how early stage investing works they were mad too

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so you know there's a lot of people reading headlines without context

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and again that was like really good

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because our business was going like this a lot of people with all the headlines were purchasing the app

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and stuff but at some point uh our investors told us to issue an apology

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because you know it was kind of affecting their branding

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and i did issue the apology at the time and

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that kind of just made things die down

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and it was pretty much over after that so you'd think like okay

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so then everything's good right but to me actually

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that was the start of everything that went downhill afterwards

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and you know looking back i definitely would have done certain things differently said certain things differently

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but definitely you know the apology i don't think i would have done

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that and instead i think the right plate is to double down

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and i think this is a lesson for everybody is

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if you really truly believe in something you should just double down on it

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and make it into a reality that is easier than perhaps doing something

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that seems more reasonable but you're not that sure of or if like somebody else told you to do something, you want to either fail or succeed on your own terms.

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Because after I apologized, I felt like that stifled my character.

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You know, like I wasn't sure if I could say stuff anymore.

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I just felt censored.

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It was also a tricky situation at the time because we didn't have the money in the bank account yet from, you know, our investors.

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And so, you know, I kind of felt like I didn't have a choice.

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But obviously, like you always have a choice.

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Like I could have just, you know, not taken the money and just doubled down.

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And low key, I'm going to be honest, I should have done that

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because you know no amount of money is kind of worth your your self-esteem your self-respect

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and your character who you are and you know like because

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if you can't wake up every day and be yourself

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and be what you think is is is right

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and it's good then shit what's even the point that's definitely a lesson I learned

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and I think next time I will not capitulate capitulating for

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a moment of comfort is not worth sacrifice of character that's a pretty good line right there i just made

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that up so there was you know other shit

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that happened uh around that time too i'm not gonna go into the details of everything

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because i feel like it's not

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that interesting anymore i think the other thing i want to mention is also i hated san francisco bro

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that asked one of the worst places to be on earth

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if you are under the age of 30 and

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that might seem counterintuitive

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because you know sf is is known as like really good for tech stuff

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and i think that may be true

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if you have no other skill aside from coding

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but i think in this day

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and age man like coding even coding itself like the knowledge

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economy is falling off attention economy is sort of where you

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want to be today you know it's very easy to code

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nowadays someone who doesn't code can build software nowadays with ai

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and you know that's a very real thing that's happening right now

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and you know ai code editors is becoming essentially mainstream like

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but even nowadays like i see a lot of people like

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these big tech software engineers they're not using ai in their workflow

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and it's it's actually incredible to me most of the best

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coders i know nowadays they basically like all the code they

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write nowadays is like 90 is written by ai you just review the code written by ai

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and you test right and you fix a little small things here

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and there so if you're a young person now

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that i just don't recommend going to sf i think you

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will be stunting your growth on pretty much every other aspect except like you know tech the thing about

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that is like you can learn so much about tech

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and coding just online you know in communities online on twitter on youtube all these things

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so it's not really a reason to be in sf i think

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if you don't have the resources to be geographically free nowadays you should spend time online

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and find communities online

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that can level you up right i'll be honest the people i met in sf were very like not impressive Yes, there's a lot of smart people, but you know, I'm also a smart person myself,

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but I have all these other qualities aside from being smart.

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And you know how like your environment sort of affects who you are as a person and who you become?

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I definitely did not want to become like those people, like, you know, regardless of how many, how much money a certain person would have.

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If you don't have enough resources to be geographically free, I recommend just finding your communities online.

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There's also like an air of desperation in SF.

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And you know, I went to some of these SF parties when I was there.

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And trust me, when I tell you this, I don't even know how to qualify these parties.

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It's like bitty parties, but for autistic people.

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You know, conversating with some of these people, it just felt like everything they said came from a deep-rooted sense of insecurity.

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And it was just so cringe, it didn't even feel like conversations.

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You know, I started fearing that, damn, I like shit, if I've stayed here for two years, I've become like this person, I would rather die.

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And you know, this insecurity or desperation, it manifests in everything in your life, right?

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You don't want to be someone who appears to be very desperate, right?

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You can be desperate for money, success status, woman.

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This type of desperation is like a huge ick you can have as a guy or a girl.

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And it's very obvious to anybody with slightly above average EQ.

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Now, there's definitely a way to want success to become better, to improve yourself without this sense of desperation.

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I would also say these type of people are very dangerous to do business with

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because they are the first to betray you since they usually lack character.

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Because of how desperate they are, they are very willing to betray you, to accomplish whatever they want.

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I think in life you want to approach things from an area of abundance.

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And that has nothing to do with whether you're broke, whether you are in abundance or not.

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It's more a matter of character and courage.

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You can be broke and give homeless people money.

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You can have not come from much and still be willing to take more risks.

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You can also be someone who gets a lot of girls, but then still tries to, I don't know, steal your homie's girl.

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You know, I think especially as a man, generosity and abundance are very attractive traits.

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You know, you can make a lot of money, but if you are very petty and frugal, it's very unattractive.

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I actually do very much recommend New York, but it's very expensive to live in.

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And there is also a lot of distractions.

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So you just have to be able to focus and find the people that are focusing on the same thing as you.

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Okay, so before last thing, during the time I was building power, I was also going through a huge breakup.

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And that really fucked with me.

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And, you know, that's something I'll get into more in details perhaps in another YouTube video.

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So hey, subscribe.

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but you know if you've been in my streams recently you probably already know the situation

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so at the time i essentially lost my girl i lost pair i started working with my best friend co-founder

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and i was just really much in a rut you know

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i was i was not in a good mind space

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but i felt like i had to do something

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so i just i got another big tech job you know

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and as my mind state got better i wanted to dabble into my other interests again

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and i started streaming i feel like when i was young I always wanted to be a YouTuber and a streamer.

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I feel like the YouTube thing I did it but the streaming thing I never really gave it a real try.

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So I've been streaming a lot for the past five months and I've been enjoying it.

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On my live stream I don't really do any coding stuff it's more entertainment.

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I feel like

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that is a huge opportunity right now as well especially with AI is increasing your productivity for you know everyone.

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There's going to be more and more spare time for people and that time needs to be filled with entertainment.

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So I definitely think the entertainment industry is going up.

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And if you're someone who's able to be charismatic, to be funny, to capture the attention of people, then you are going to be very valuable in the incoming years.

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So that's definitely a skill I've been sharpening.

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I want to, you know, be more charismatic, more funny.

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That's kind of counterintuitive, actually.

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If you want to be more charismatic, you should not say you are trying to be more charismatic.

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So I'm just going to say this once.

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Actually cut that shit out.

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So yeah, I've been enjoying streaming.

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I'll have a certain timeline for it.

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We'll see how it goes.

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Maybe it's going to be something else in the next few months who knows bro who knows i think

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that is just my life at this point i i've come

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to accept it i like to dabble in different things i

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like to be a i like to have a lot of

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variety i like to be well-rounded as a person uh

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and i like to go hard and try hard in these different things in life

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if you look at a lot of the great people in life

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that have had a lot of success you can see

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that they dabble in multiple different things and a lot of a lot of the time At the same time, they do all of these things.

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Some of them fail.

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Some of them succeed.

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And that is the point.

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It's just doing shit.

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Whatever works, whatever doesn't, doesn't.

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And, you know, do it on your own terms.

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So, hey, before the sun fully goes down, I'm about to go chill at Central Park for a little bit.

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I'm also out of battery, so I'm going to just call it now for this video.

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Okay, I hope y'all enjoyed this video.

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Subscribe.

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I'm going to be posting more on this YouTube channel.

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Let me know what y'all want to see.

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I can talk about more stuff.

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Anybody going to TwitchCon, by the way, I'll be there.

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Say hello if you see me.

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Yeah, and shit, I might just go home and play League right now.

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I hope you guys have been doing well.

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Let me know in the comments what's been up with y'all.

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I'm sure you guys are, you know, rich, high net worth individuals by now.

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Earning a lot of money.

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Hey, send me some.

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Give me some subs on Twitch.

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I'm kidding, bro.

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But not really.

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Hey, Perry Eye, 2025.

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Fryer Pan, 2025.

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Shout out to Nang, by the way.

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He's probably the best friend I've ever had.

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Great guy.

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And he's pivoting.

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He's still working on the startup.

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He's going to find something great.

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And shit, maybe who knows?

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Maybe I'll fucking join him.

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Who the fuck knows?

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Maybe I'll be homeless tomorrow.

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I don't know what the fuck I'm doing, bro.

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Oh, and also, I moved back to New York.

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And I have a new apartment.

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So let me know if y'all want me to do an apartment tour.

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I can do that as the next video.

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But, uh, peace, boys.

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Peace.

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All right, I'm done.

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My girl's waiting for me, bro.

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A girl?

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I'm just kidding, bro.

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I don't have a girl.

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I have many.

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I have many girls.

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I'm kidding, bro.

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I'm so good.

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I'm so good.

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Woordenschat en spreektips bij deze les

Deze video bevat 316 zinnen en 3744 woorden om na te spreken. Het gesproken deel duurt 16:19. De spreker praat snel, ongeveer 229 woorden per minuut, dus reken op verbonden en ingeslikte klanken. 85% van de woorden hoort bij de 3.000 meest gebruikte Engelse woorden; de rest kun je beter vooraf bekijken.

Belangrijke woorden in deze video

15 woorden uit de video die het leren waard zijn, met uitspraak en betekenis:

Woord	Uitspraak	Betekenis
nowadays bijwoord	/ˈnaʊ.ə.deɪz/	heden, momenteel
earn werkwoord	/ɝn/	verdienen
essentially bijwoord	/ɪˈsɛnʃəli/	essentieel
desperate bijvoeglijk naamwoord	/ˈdɛs.p(ə.)ɹɪt/	wanhopig, vertwijfeld
privilege zelfstandig naamwoord	/ˈpɹɪv.(ɪ.)lɪd͡ʒ/	voorrecht, privilege
apology zelfstandig naamwoord	/əˈpɑ.lə.d͡ʒi/	verontschuldiging
abundance zelfstandig naamwoord	/əˈbʌn.dn̩s/	overvloed
startup zelfstandig naamwoord	/ˈstɑɹtˌʌp/	opstart, opstarting
lesson zelfstandig naamwoord	/ˈlɛs.ən/	les
founder zelfstandig naamwoord	/ˈfaʊ̯n.dəː/	stichter, grondlegger
skill zelfstandig naamwoord	/skɪl/	bekwaamheid, vaardigheid
differently bijwoord	/ˈdɪf.ə.ɹənt.li/	verschillend, anders
shout werkwoord	/ʃaʊt/	schreeuwen
interact werkwoord	/ɪn.təˈɹækt/	interageren, elkaar beïnvloeden
headline zelfstandig naamwoord	/ˈhɛd.laɪn/	kop

Phrasal verbs die je zult horen

Woord	Uitspraak	Betekenis
grow up werkwoord		opgroeien
double down werkwoord		inzet verdubbelen
come back werkwoord		terugkomen
give up werkwoord		zich overgeven
go down werkwoord		afdalen
look back werkwoord		achterom kijken, terugkijken
wake up werkwoord	/ˌweɪk ˈʌp/	wakker worden, ontwaken

Grammatica in deze video

De structuren die de spreker het meest gebruikt, met de exacte woorden uit de video:

Structuur	In de video
Present perfect continuous have/has been + -ing — iets dat eerder begon en nog bezig is	I've been going · i've been trying · I've been streaming
Present perfect have/has + voltooid deelwoord — iets uit het verleden dat nu nog telt	I've learned · I've worked · I've gained
Betrekkelijke bijzinnen who / which + zin — extra informatie over een persoon of ding	person who is · people who do · people who worked
Lijdende vorm be + voltooid deelwoord — het gaat om wat er gebeurt, niet om wie het doet	is not expected · being born · was chopped

Uitspraak om op te letten

De spreker gebruikt 98 samentrekkingen en verkorte vormen, zoals I'm, don't, I've. Spreek ze kort uit, zoals je ze hoort.

De klanken “sh” en “zh”: desperation /ˌdɛspəˈɹeɪʃən/, essentially /ɪˈsɛnʃəli/, shout /ʃaʊt/, capture /ˈkæp.(t)ʃɚ/, passionate /ˈpæʃənɪt/
Lange woorden — let op de klemtoon: desperation /ˌdɛspəˈɹeɪʃən/, essentially /ɪˈsɛnʃəli/, apology /əˈpɑ.lə.d͡ʒi/, differently /ˈdɪf.ə.ɹənt.li/, apologize /əˈpɑləˌd͡ʒaɪz/

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