تدريب Shadowing: I really need to stop taking life so seriously - تعلم التحدث بالإنجليزية عبر الفيديو

hello good morning my friends how are you doing welcome back

to another video it is the end of the week

and this was an especially stressful week

because i've been trying to record my piano grade 7 exam

and it's just very very stressful you get in your head

a lot i even tried to start this video yesterday

and recorded a couple of clips

but i think you can just see how anxious i was anyway let's play some of that

i have been trying to record my grade 7 exam

which i have to send to the examination office so

that i can get my certificate for grade 7

and I think I already have one recording

that I'm quite okay with sending but I'm not super super proud of it

and so I've been trying to record it over the past couple of weeks me

and Luna are chilling and I decided I needed a break

and so I'm going to be drinking a little bit of coffee

and then trying a couple more times and call it a day

if it's taking too long

because you're not actually supposed to try too many times in a row

because then you'll stop making dumb mistakes and wish me luck

Oh my gosh, so many mistakes

Wow Wow

oh my gosh what kind of loaf is this

I am just way too in my head I think these past couple of days

and making things harder for myself than they need to be.

I feel like a lot of the times you are in your own way,

it's your mind that's keeping you from doing the things that you want to do because you keep believing that you can't, that you are not capable,

all of these silly things that you have proven to be wrong over

and over again but you know it feels like you need unlimited proof so that you can believe in yourself finally.

I don't even know, my mood is just kind of sticky, it feels like it's not flowing it's kind of catching on to certain things

and letting those things dictate how i feel throughout periods of

time a couple of hours a couple of days let's see

if i can change things around tomorrow start feeling a little bit brighter

and so today i want to just really take this day to do things

that i enjoy and

that calm me down my monstera leaf already opened up this is my half white leaf

that I was telling you about last video and she just looks

so beautiful I am so excited

when this monstera came to me she only had this leaf I think

and this one was developing and this one was nowhere to be seen

but it came through this week and wow it just looks

so beautiful I love her today we're going to be having some plant care to do, plant watering, plant pruning.

Okay, one thing at a time.

Let's do it.

Okay, I'm going to check the weather.

I think it's supposed to be rainy.

We have lots of clouds, lots of humidity.

I'm going to go to the next video you

I'm going to start by checking which of my plants need water, looking at roots and propagations.

I counted them yesterday and I realized I am the proud plant mom of 32 kids

and so you know their schedules are quite different

and they have different needs in general and

so i'm just going to be doing a full run through monstera still does not need water

so maybe tomorrow and i will do this for all of them

and for my propagations i basically take the little glasses out

and i look at the roots i see

if there's any algae i see if the new growths are sprouting

which in this case all of these green sprouts thingies they are new growths

so that's good news and then we have my philodendron propagation

which has a little leaf which it didn't have before

and it has two very large roots as you can see

and there is going to be a new leaf unfurling from here

and this is basically what I'll be doing for all of them trying to look for any rotten materials

so like leaves that rotted and fell into the water

because you don't want that contaminating the water so

that needs to be removed

and then for my potted plants i just stick my finger in them

and i check that there is still moisture in the upper layers

so all i'm going to do to this one is prune

it a little bit i've been pruning it for the past couple of weeks as to stimulate growth

and it has been helping

because i think this shoot is reaching a little bit higher

iv propagation this was my second propagation i ever did

and it has a little bit of algae as you can see

so this needs to be cleaned

and this was my first ever iv propagation she was just a little baby cutting

and now during the summer she really really started to move

may need a little bit of water from what i'm seeing

all of these are new growths these are new growths so it's very nice

I took care of my plants

and I decorated my brother's envelope I wrote him a letter for his birthday

and I think I'm still going to add some more things

but I just didn't want it to be plain it's his birthday today

so and now I'm going to go get ready

so we can try out this new cafe I don't know

if they're going to allow me to record in there but never hurts to try Bye!

It's a really really beautiful day out and I'm really glad I decided to walk instead of take my car.

It looked like it was going to rain but I don't think it is anymore.

Alright, now I have to muster up the courage to ask if I can record at the cafe.

Wish me luck fellows.

Good morning!

They allowed me to record without any problems and

so I think I'm getting a little bit more confident in my skills of asking if I can Thank you very much!

Thank you!

And I asked for a latte and a piece of orange cake

and so I'm going to be having that while I read Passion According to GH by Clarice

I used to come to this cafe a lot last year when it was under another ownership

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and I got to know the owner

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and it was really fun I used to be here by 8am every morning just before I went out

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and recorded They closed in August which made me very very sad

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because I was so used to coming here you know but now they are open again.

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The guy working here already sounds super super nice and outgoing and so I'm really excited.

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I'm really happy about having this place again.

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oh that was really really nice it was

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so great to go back to a place that i spent

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so much time in and the new owner seemed really really excited about the fact

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that he was you know now running the little cafe kiosk thingy

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and now I'm going on a walk to refresh my brain

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because I've been going to a lot of different places

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but it feels like I'm always in the car

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and I've been taking less walks than I probably should

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so I'm going on a little one currently find a place to sit down have a smoke

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and then my mom just texted me

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because she needs a specific thing for my brother's dinner today

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which is just a little gift that she wanted to give him

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but she hasn't been able to find it

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so I'm going to try a specific store that I think might have it

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this is one of my favorite spots to walk in i used to run here too

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when i ran oh my gosh that was such a great habit

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and i i lost track of it i stopped doing it one week

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and then i never picked it up again

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but i used to run here a lot

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and it's also quite nice to walk i think I think I'm going to go through the trees.

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One year.

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One year.

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Look at this.

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I just love walking in between trees, hearing the sound that the shoes make in the leaves.

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Like, kkkk.

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I love it.

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All right, roll this thing.

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Is it my best work yet?

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Probably not.

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But you know what?

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It is what it is.

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Porto Balastre is opened.

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I finished reading Virginia Woolf's A Room of One's Own and I really really enjoyed it.

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It was a very very great surprise.

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I didn't rate it 5 out of 5 just because I am very strict with my 5 star reads.

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but I gave it a 4 .8 which is pretty close

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and I just really loved the way that everything was written

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and explained and thought of and now I'm reading my second Clarice.

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Clarice to me is really tough

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because I feel like she writes in a sort of a stream of consciousness way

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but her way of writing is very difficult to understand I

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guess to me it seems very all over the place

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but in a good way but it's just a way

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that I think is tougher to understand just

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because there isn't a clear structure I think

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but I'm loving it I have already marked a couple of

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pages sorry book lovers I mark my pages like this just

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because I don't have to buy post -it notes and I don't have to carry post -it notes.

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I used to always carry my post -it notes inside of my book but then they would fall, then I would lose them, then I would have to buy more

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and it just seemed like a waste of money when I can just fold the pages.

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At the end of the day I think everybody should use their books

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and read however they like there's a lot of people that

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when they see my books they're like oh my gosh it's ruined

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but i don't think of it

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that way i think of it as like you know i really love this book

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so much i marked a lot of different things

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that made a lot of sense to me

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or sparked something in me of joy or of curiosity

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or whatever it was and i love going back to my books and being able to

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check my annotations and check the pages that I marked that had an impact on me and I do it quite often.

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Ever since I started reading in 2024 I have read 55 books which is not very much.

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I know that some people read that per year or per half a year.

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Do you even enjoy the books at that point?

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I don't know.

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I don't want to judge, right?

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But I'm a little bit of a slow reader.

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I really like taking my time

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just to make sure that whatever this author wrote is really resonating with me that i'm really

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taking in because it's such a big thing to write a book it's usually a process

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that lasts a year a couple of years you know it takes a lot out of a person

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so i really love to enjoy it deeply

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and before 2024 i was always the type of person

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that said she didn't like to read

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but i think that's one of those things like how can you not like to read

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when there are so many different genres you probably just haven't found the one

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that you like the most you know and that was definitely the case for me

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did you hear the cicadas

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I think I was just really needing a day where I'm not trying to record my exam or thinking about my exam.

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At the end of the day, it's really not that deep.

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Nothing is that serious.

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I know my pieces very well and I have already recorded one exam that I think I'm quite proud of.

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But I definitely could do better.

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And so that's what I've been trying to do now.

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But at the end of the day, I already have that recording to fall back on.

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I just take it too seriously.

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I take everything so seriously and it really ruins a lot of things for me, you know

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There is no need time is so short and fleeting

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and here I am Going about my days taking everything

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so seriously as if it matters that much So I've been trying to just enjoy the process of things

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Without trying to make them The most perfect thing I've ever done in my life.

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I suppose.

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I don't know

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I'm sorry.

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I have a car tripod now.

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I was thinking of going on a road trip one of these days.

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I'd really love to take you guys along but I tried many different ways of

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Attaching my camera to the car somehow and it just never worked

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And so I finally got a proper car tripod It may not be the most stable But it does the job,

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you know, and so I'm going to go to the store where they probably sell a couple of key rings now

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to see if they have the one

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that i know my brother would like to get they didn't

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have what we were looking for at the store sadly my

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mom wanted to get my brother a gecko key ring just

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because geckos are a very big symbol of the town where

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we grew up at they say they are sold out

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and the next one only arrives in 15 days

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so now i'm going to go back home

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and start editing this video maybe relax a little bit more just take things slowly do things mindfully and just enjoy

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We're doing a little in -game section.

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A lot of people have...

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Ooh, a lot of people have told me that maybe I could create a gaming channel, but...

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I don't know.

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I'm not super good at playing any of the games I play, or good in general.

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I just really love playing games.

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It's one of my favorite hobbies.

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And I have been having some fun today with playing a couple of League games.

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So I thought we could maybe do some of these...

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...gaming moments inside of the videos.

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I don't know.

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Yeah, I was just trying to make it a little bit more interesting to show you

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that I was playing League of Legends instead of just recording from the back, which I think is also cool, but it's definitely different.

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Can I do anything here?

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No. I don't deal damage.

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Not enough anyway.

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Oh, I think I kill him.

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Wait, look.

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Yes.

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Yes!

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That was really clunky.

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I wanted to ask you about that.

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What do you think about the little gaming moments?

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It's not going to be anything like remarkable, like me doing a really cool play or anything, just gaming and chatting for like three minutes in a video.

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I think that could be fun.

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But I don't know.

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Let me know.

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you Bruh

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I am pretty hungry so I'm just going to make two scrambled eggs

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my secret for scrambled eggs is to add a little bit of milk because it adds fluffiness Well, it's not my secret.

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It was my mom that told me.

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I know that some people use mayonnaise.

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I'm drinking leftover coffee from this morning. with my eggs.

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It's been around four hours and I've been switching in between editing,

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playing sections of my pieces to practice them and playing League of Legends.

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And it has been a really great afternoon so far.

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And also I'm still planning on doing a live stream today.

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It's going to be a surprise live stream.

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I usually don't stream on these days of the week.

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I love live streaming.

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That's another one of the best parts of doing content creation.

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Live streaming is probably the most fun.

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Just getting to interact in real time with everybody.

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I just love it.

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Alrighty, it is almost time to leave for dinner.

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I got ready, redid my makeup and I am having an apple and I will also be having a cigarette.

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Okay, it's all about balance.

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What can I say?

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today has really felt very refreshing the whole day itself

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i feel like i was just needing to take a day to just do the things

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that i like to do without guilt

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and without pressure i feel like pressure is a very big thing all self -imposed by the way

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but sometimes that's the worst because it doesn't end you know

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if you have pressure from your parents to do well in

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school well at least one day you're going to move out

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no matter how long that's going to take well in this

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economy self -imposed pressure doesn't leave unless you learn how to stop pressuring yourself so much you know

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and ever since i can remember i've been pretty hard on myself

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but then again self -imposed pressure doesn't leave if you don't stop it

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but also the good part is

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that it's all up to you to stop doing this to yourself you know

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so i don't know i'm conflicted between thinking it's better

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or worse maybe that's not the point at all it's just

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that i have to recognize that i'm doing this

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and ruining good days for myself days

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that could have been calm peaceful amazing happy joyful

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and turning them into a big headache of task after task

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that has to be completed to perfection for what i don't know ask this one because i'm not sure

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it's probably some sort of a defense mechanism i would say

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me trying to prove to myself look look you can do great things you are a valuable human being

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which i've been realizing a lot of things about myself

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that aren't good

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because it's basically just me setting myself back in a lot of different aspects in my life it's tough

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because these are ways of being and doing and behaving

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that i've had forever and realizing them i guess is the first step understanding

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that they are there and that i would like to change them is good

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but now there's this work that needs to be done in the two change

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and sometimes i don't even know how to

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because this has been the way that i've operated and

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so it feels like the most natural

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or the only natural way for me to be i'm really

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liking the rosy cheek i think i put a little bit

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more blush than i usually do i don't know i try to do a different makeup

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but i always end up doing the same one i always do

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because it's the one i know how to do also another thing is

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that i think that sometimes i just think too much

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and i ponder a lot and I think that's cool

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and all but a little bit more action maybe would be beneficial too.

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It's not that I don't act, but I think that I think a lot before acting.

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And there's a certain line.

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It's good to think before you do things, but not to a point where you're only thinking and not actually doing the things themselves, you know.

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And so planning is only useful if you actually take your plan into action someday, soon.

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I'm going to go to the next video.

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Hi, I arrived 30 minutes earlier than I needed to.

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This is a recurring thing that I do.

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I always arrive way too early.

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I would love to know how many hours of my life I have lost due to waiting, because I'm always way too early.

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So I think I'm just going to walk up and down this street to make a little bit of time.

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And then when it's finally time for dinner, I will climb up to the restaurant.

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Sorry about the trash can.

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I just really like watching the train pass and I wanted to show you a little bit of it.

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I don't know if you want to go to the restaurant, but I don't know if you want to go to the restaurant.

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