Shadowing Practice: I hate being performative - Learn English Speaking with Video

I hate being performative.

I hate it when I can just feel this angst inside myself

when I'm trying to either seek someone's approval or I'm trying to just fit in.

Now, I think there's different levels.

There's different levels of being performative or performance.

And one is sort of, maybe all of them are sort of out of this sense of insecurity.

But some of them, I guess, are worse than others.

Some of them, someone is completely fake Someone could be, I don't know, maybe their whole life is a liar Just what they say and how they act is disingenuine

Versus someone who is trying to fit in, but they don't quite know how And I guess that's where I am Not right now,

but I have been in the latter

Trying to either fit in with a group Or just feel like I am not a complete outsider

and I guess especially in school high school I felt

so much anxiety and maybe I wasn't performative

but I was just very very aware too aware too conscious

to the point where I guess I wasn't really doing a whole lot from the outside

but from the inside I felt like I wasn't me I wasn't acting like myself

and it was performance without any actual outside performance

but just constant monitoring of myself which is in some sense performance

or maybe just really bad anxiety

but nonetheless I don't feel this way anymore at least not nearly as much as

when I was in school maybe sometimes in some way I feel this way

but um it's definitely gotten a lot better But I think it's weird because,

especially with social media, but even maybe just in a place like school, you know, who is being real, who is just performing?

And you wonder, well, who am I in relation to all this?

Am I performing?

Or is everyone just kind of hiding something, hiding how they really feel about their life?

I don't know.

Are people just kind of ignorant or are people just very good at performance?

I don't know but I feel like in some way our whole life is just an act.

We're all just trying to make people think we are someone

that we don't really feel like or that we hope to be

but we don't necessarily feel like we are

and we're just doing things to convince everyone but

if everyone's doing this then what's the point maybe we can all just drop the act

and just start being more real with each other maybe we can stop trying to focus

so much on being this person who is thought highly of instead just not care so much.

I don't know.

To many, it probably isn't that easy.

Maybe even to me.

I mean, just recording this video, maybe this is a performance.

I don't know.

But here's what I'll say.

To me, I do not trust the person who is always agreeable, nor do I trust the person who is always disagreeable.

I think especially on social media,

there is sort of this idea that if you're someone who's super duper relatable or super duper just like repulsive or disagreeable,

then you'll be popular.

And I wonder, well, how much of it is just trying to be agreeable or trying to be disagreeable just for,

you know, the views, the likes or the follows or whatever versus what do you actually think?

Because that's what I want to know.

I don't want to know what you think that is politically correct.

I don't know what you want to think that you think other people will approve of.

I just want to know what you think.

And it's difficult in society, at least in Western society.

Maybe this is probably just a whole world thing, but not wanting to be perceived in a certain way as negative based off of either how you act

or what you think or your opinions.

And it's maybe in some context, maybe in some context, you could say maybe it's a good thing.

But I think overall, overall, probably in 99% of situations,

it's bad because everyone kind of just keeps what they really think on the inside.

and instead they just perform.

And I don't think it helps anyone.

I don't think it helps society.

I don't think it helps people grow.

I don't think it helps people get along better either.

I think really it's just performance, like I've been saying so many times.

But yeah, I don't want to be performative.

It's like the thing about social media, posting on here, It's like, what's going to happen to me if I get famous?

Or if people start, you know, commenting more, saying things, whatever, whether it's good or bad, what's going to happen?

Will I turn into someone who I'm not actually?

Will I just start performing and just lose myself?

I hope not.

But maybe it's also a test of character. And that's the thing.

Like you see people like when they get famous, some people say, oh, that guy really changed.

They changed or they weren't the same way they are.

But I wonder in what way?

In what way did they change?

Did they change in a better way or a worse way?

It's usually a worse way when people talk about it that way. But why?

Is it fame?

Is it money?

Is it power?

I wonder.

I really do.

But I guess here's my declaration or proclamation.

I'll say it out loud here.

I declare that I will not let it destroy me or ruin me or strip out the things that are genuine.

Because in some way, the more popular or famous you get, the more you have to lose.

and it's like people care more about how they are perceived versus just in some sense their dignity

their dignity their dignity of what they stand on what they believe in And I don't like that, you know?

It's unfortunate.

And I guess I don't want to become that way.

So we'll have to see.

We'll have to see what happens to me, to my life.

In one way, I guess success would be a great thing.

But in another way, it's a test.

It's a test to see who will I become Will I just become another performer Or will I somehow remain me

I think fame changes everyone To some extent

But it shouldn't change you In a super negative way In some sense it should

I don't know Amplify the good things about you I mean, I guess that's what I would hope it would do, but maybe that's just like wishful thinking.

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That's probably not what happens most of the time.

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But yeah, that's what I'm thinking.

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I don't want to be performative.

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I just want to be me.

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Deze video bevat 103 zinnen en 1161 woorden om na te spreken. Het gesproken deel duurt 8:19. De spreker praat in een gelijkmatig tempo van ongeveer 139 woorden per minuut, prettig om te shadowen. 86% van de woorden hoort bij de 3.000 meest gebruikte Engelse woorden; de rest kun je beter vooraf bekijken.

Belangrijke woorden in deze video

15 woorden uit de video die het leren waard zijn, met uitspraak en betekenis:

Woord	Uitspraak	Betekenis
versus	/ˈvɝsəs/	tegen
dignity zelfstandig naamwoord	/ˈdɪɡnɪti/	waardigheid
anxiety zelfstandig naamwoord	/æŋˈzaɪ.əti/	bezorgdheid, ongerustheid
fame zelfstandig naamwoord	/feɪm/	bekendheid, roem
perceive werkwoord	/pɚˈsiv/	waarnemen
necessarily bijwoord	/ˌnɛs.əˈsɛɹ.ə.li/	nodig, noodzakelijk
extent zelfstandig naamwoord	/ɪkˈstɛnt/	bereik, mate
genuine bijvoeglijk naamwoord	/ˈd͡ʒɛn.juˌɪn/	echt, authentiek
monitor zelfstandig naamwoord	/ˈmɑ.nɪ.tɚ/	toezichthouder
strip werkwoord	/ˈstɹɪp/	strippen
relation zelfstandig naamwoord	/ɹɪˈleɪʃ(ə)n/	familielid, bloedverwant
ruin zelfstandig naamwoord	/ˈɹuː.ɪn/	ruïne, bouwval
convince werkwoord	/kənˈvɪns/	overtuigen
conscious bijvoeglijk naamwoord	/ˈkɑn.ʃəs/	bij bewustzijn, alert
unfortunate bijvoeglijk naamwoord	/ʌnˈfɔː.t͡ʃə.nɪt/	onfortuinlijk

Phrasal verbs die je zult horen

Woord	Betekenis
get along werkwoord	opschieten, overeenkomen

Grammatica in deze video

De structuren die de spreker het meest gebruikt, met de exacte woorden uit de video:

Structuur	In de video
Betrekkelijke bijzinnen who / which + zin — extra informatie over een persoon of ding	someone who is · myself which is · person who is
Lijdende vorm be + voltooid deelwoord — het gaat om wat er gebeurt, niet om wie het doet	is thought · be perceived · are perceived

Uitspraak om op te letten

De spreker gebruikt 40 samentrekkingen en verkorte vormen, zoals don't, I'm, wasn't. Spreek ze kort uit, zoals je ze hoort.

De klanken “sh” en “zh”: relation /ɹɪˈleɪʃ(ə)n/, conscious /ˈkɑn.ʃəs/, declaration /ˌdɛk.ləˈɹeɪ.ʃən/, proclamation /ˌpɹɑkləˈmeɪʃən/, wishful /ˈwɪʃfəl/
Lange woorden — let op de klemtoon: anxiety /æŋˈzaɪ.əti/, necessarily /ˌnɛs.əˈsɛɹ.ə.li/, unfortunate /ʌnˈfɔː.t͡ʃə.nɪt/, declaration /ˌdɛk.ləˈɹeɪ.ʃən/, disagreeable /dɪsəˈɡɹi.əbəl/

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Neem jezelf op en vergelijk met het origineel; let daarbij op woorden als versus, dignity, anxiety.

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