Shadowing Practice: my experience with growing up "ugly" - Learn English Speaking with Video

Hello beautiful people of the internet, this is NoWalkHuman here.

Today we will be doing a different type of video where I sit down

and talk to you guys while I do my makeup.

Yes, the long-awaited makeup tutorial, but it's not exactly a makeup tutorial.

It's more of me yapping about beauty standards, my insecurities, and how I feel being a femme presenting person online

because oh lord people do judge you by your looks

and will pick you apart if you do not look the way

that they deem as feminine pretty beautiful whatever i'm gonna start

out with moisturizer already put my fake hair in yes i wear fake hair um my hair are extensions

but i've mentioned

that many many times as you guys know i put a beauty filter on my videos

and this one will also have it because they still have crippling body dysmorphia.

It's not something that you could fix in a snap of a finger like that.

I turned off DMs on the account that I post my YouTube stuff

because I got a lot of people harassing me and those people

that came from my channel here to there

and then onto the makeup page they found it and they're like wow you're actually chopped.

I can't believe like you've been catfishing everyone this whole entire time

and then i'm just like i've been saying this i've been saying

that i put a beauty filter on my shit

and i've been saying that i got eyelid surgery

and yeah obviously the difference is like night

and day people obviously treat you so different people treat you

so different accordingly to how you fit beauty standards i was always the tan asian kid

and i didn't have good skin i had acne since I was in the fourth grade.

Basically, I ate so much junk food.

I remember I ate like McDonald's like several times a week and I had like Dunkin' Donuts every other day.

That's only because there was a Dunkin' Donuts really close to my house.

And I got really really bad acne and then I just started scratching it all off.

And then I had that habit ever since for like the next few years.

So then my acne never really got better

because I don't know what's wrong with me like i always

fidget a lot as a kid i would like pull off

my hair like i pulled off like like a little semi-circle here

and then i will also scratch my acne off

so then it left a lot of scarring

but it's been a long time since that so

so then my acne scars got better but

if i kept going at it kept picking it at it

for even more years it definitely would have caused irreversible damage

to my skin i remember growing up i always watched a lot of makeup tutorials

especially like james charles jeffree star

and all the og makeup people i always wanted to be like

that because i was like wow like it feels

so fun it seems so fun

and then i just didn't have the features for it i

didn't have big round eyes i didn't have a double eyelid nor did i have like the bone structure

that most western western makeup youtubers had on old youtube

so then i don't really know what to do i just

i just try to learn the 2016 kylie makeup at

that King Kylie makeup but obviously it did not suit my features

and let's fast forward to when I discovered Korean makeup oh lord

that was a whole whole new ballpark

that I was not ready to dive into at the time at

that time I discovered BTS and I was like oh my god wait they're

so pretty and then I realized that they wore makeup too

and then the deeper

that I got into k-pop I was like okay these girls look like me

so then maybe I can look as beautiful as them

so then I tried experimenting with that

that makeup style Korean makeup style oh lord I always look like I had like gochujang on my lips

and when I did the western makeup I literally looked like Donald Trump

because I just like put contour on my jawline

and then it was just straight up orange like no one told me

that my neck was just orange so then I had a lot of makeup mistakes when I was a beginner

and back then we didn't have like tiktok well we had like musically

but then like tiktok was barely even starting out let alone

like xiaohongsu where you could find even more asian makeup as

you guys know kpop beauty standards are by no means easily attainable

so then i was looking at

that beauty standard i was like oh wow i should be able to look like them

if i've used enough products did the right foundation made my skin clear

and da da da da da and it was just like never ending

because i was like oh actually i i needed to have a smaller face

and i also needed bigger eyes oh

so like my monoliths it's not considered beautiful in asia

so then i was like okay now where do i fit between the beauty standards

because i am a mix of the west and the east as well

because i was born there and then came here

and then assimilation i guess

but yeah it's just like it's hard to find the middle ground

and it's like you either have to fit in one category

or the other

and now i i still don't know where i fit i i don't know by any means

but it's okay um i'm just like i'm just the floater

it didn't help that i was like very very socially in-depth adept

and i don't know the right word for it

but just like socially not very well adjusted let's just say

that so then it was even harder to make friends

and there was this girl in freshman year of high school

i remember i was just sitting alone eating my lunch my school lunch

and i was just like pretending to be on my phone

i was like wait no i was just pretending to read a book

because i felt like i couldn't talk to anyone and

that i didn't know what to do

and i just didn't want to look like a loner

so then i was just pretending to read a book

while i eat but i was not paying attention to book at all i hated reading books

but it was like performative i guess

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because i just didn't want to seem like a fucking loser

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and i didn't want i don't know i was just

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so self-conscious of what people thought of me still am

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but we're working on it we're working on it

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and then she was also in my japanese class

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and she was a very very very extroverted kid she could talk to anyone

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and she was like friends with everyone as well

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and then she sat like on the other edge of the table as me

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and then with her friends

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and then she like just walked over to me i was just like like do you hate me

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and she was like you look angry all the time i'm

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like no i'm not angry that's just my face this is literally just my face

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and it was definitely because of my um very sharp monolids

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so then i was just like ah shit well well there's

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not much i could do there there wasn't much i could

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do at the time obviously i was literally a kid

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but i was just like damn breath

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and then i just lucked it out for the next few years

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and then during quarantine was when i really experimented with makeup

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because I literally chopped my hair off by myself at home and gave myself a bowl cut

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and then I felt more comfortable in my own skin

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because of the fact that I was like exploring my sexuality

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and gender identity and then that was

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when I started feeling more comfortable with myself

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because I didn't have to go to school because that was COVID

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so then no one could see me behind the screen I

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barely ever showed my face like you know everyone just like

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low-key like just stop showing their faces at some point you know

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so then i just didn't show my face and i felt most comfortable

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that way and then that was when my acne truly started to clear up

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because i think the school environment was just not it for me it just made me feel

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so icky and gross in quarantine i just felt so so

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so so much better so

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so much less stress like i didn't have to worry about being perceived by other kids making friends

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because by then it was like february march i still didn't really have friends i was just a freaking floater

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that didn't have friends because the people

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that i thought were maybe friends they told me later on

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that they didn't think we're close at all

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and i was like wow i totally misread that situation

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but um regardless of that so that was also

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when like 2020 tiktok was like very into that e-girl um alternative aesthetic

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and i was just experimenting i was experimenting with everything winged

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liner fashion it was just like everything i just wanted to look cool i want to look cool

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so i could fit in somewhere and i slowly did that

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and then i actually did find people i i tried to reach out

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because after basically a year of like not really talking to

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people i was like okay well now i'm getting really lonely like there's not enough genshin quests now

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so i need to find someone to play valorant with and

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that was also when valorant came out so then i was like okay

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so now i need to find friends to play games with

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because i am really lonely and

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and playing genshin by myself is not cutting it anymore because at that time I literally finished all the quests.

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Yes I literally just grinded Genshin every single day while I was on zoom.

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It was fun.

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I was I was actually some classes I was paying attention

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and low-key it made my attention span way better

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but for some other classes I couldn't play in a game at the same time like physics.

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I could not do that.

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I had

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I had to put my full attention on there

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or else the teacher would have called me out in front of the class

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and that was the last thing I wanted to do.

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But the trick was you participate a lot in the beginning and then they're like, yeah, that person actually talks a lot.

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So then when everyone is burnt out and stuff towards the middle of the semester, no one starts talking anymore, even the active participants

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and then they just slowly stop calling on you

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and then I just kind of use

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that meta to like I participated in the very beginning of the class

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so then they wouldn't pick on me later on

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and then then I just started playing games again yeah anyways guys stay in school don't become like me

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because I almost became a dropout

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because that's that's a whole nother story high school senior year yeah

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that that's a whole nother thing but we don't need to get onto

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that yeah so then i messaged this one girl

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that i didn't talk to for years because we went to different high schools

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and then i i was like oh my god wait she she does tiktok

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and she likes alternative fashion too so then i tried hitting her up

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but then she goes to me at first

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but then eventually she started talking to me

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and then we started hitting it off and then we started playing games together

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and then she introduced me to her friend it's like the

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way to make friends is like you need an extroverted friend

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first to like bring you along with their other friends like

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you need you need an extrovert friend to adopt you that's

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that's the main way to make friends is how i think

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is the easiest meta at least that's what i think the meta is and it's definitely a foolproof plan

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and then after she introduced me to her friends

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and they were all accepting and welcoming of me I felt more secure

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and I was like wow people actually like me

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and they're inclusive of me wait that's crazy so then yeah I think

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that was the most confident I was but then

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because of friend group drama

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and stuff like most friend groups do um it slowly fell apart

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and then yeah people just picked sides and then and then it just went into yeah it just dissipated basically

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makeup so far wow i still feel

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so freaking chopped bro oh my god okay these days i just genuinely feel

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so shitty about myself i feel like it's because of the fact

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that um i don't know there's just a lot going on i just feel

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so guilty for not doing shit and then feeling like shit

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because of the ex rebound thing and then also remember the job interview that happened yeah

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so when they were telling me to go pick a training day I picked it

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but then on the day of I flaked not gonna lie told them

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that I was sick because I felt so nauseous

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but more like in an anxiety induced way not like I was physically ill type of way it was

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so much anxiety I couldn't bring myself to go

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and yeah I probably fucked up the um opportunity that way

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because I don't think they would want me anymore if i rescheduled

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that many times with them right so i'm just like okay well

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fuck um r.i.p job r.i.p job i still need a message to them

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and ask them if they want to reschedule they said no problem

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but i don't actually know if they meant no problem you know

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but yeah it's just so much anxiety and uh feeling bad about myself these days anyways continuing on with the story

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it wasn't until like last year after i got eyelid surgery

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that i truly felt a little bit better about myself

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but even now it feels like it's not enough it feels like oh i need more

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and i want more there's more and more things that i pick at myself about because i'm my own worst critic

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like that's usually how it is for everyone you're your own worst critic

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and like we literally bully ourselves in our own heads

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and i genuinely think my brain is my biggest op

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because literally no one would be this mean to me in

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real life actually maybe there would some some people on the internet are weird

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but um for the most part i don't think anyone could be more mean than myself

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to myself at least wait my freaking ego style looks different it looks different from each side

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I feel like I'm like going on a tangent I don't

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even know what I'm talking about anymore I'm sorry guys I'm

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like really bad at this Like I'm not a good I'm

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not very good at keeping track Of my thoughts I just say whatever comes to my brain

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And a lot of the times it's Disorganized

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Alright we got our Egyosar way

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Oh my god I don't know why I said that That one song is stuck in my head

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The one that's like the

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umma musume okay um this part's the most important my eyebrows

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because clearly i have very very sparse eyebrows i don't know it's just weird i feel like i'm

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so conditioned to hate myself it's probably also like a capitalism thing um

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because there's always new products on the market

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and it's like oh it's picking out a new insecurity

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that you never thought you had before like since

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when was like the length of your philtrum the length of

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your midface a thing literally a few years ago no one talked about this shit no one

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and all of a sudden everyone's talking about this and then the fucking recessed chin and shit oh my god bro

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it's just more and more things to make us pick at to hate ourselves

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and then buy into some fucking product

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or procedure to fix it oh my light just went out

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but yeah it's just obviously i'm a consumer first i consume media

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and everything so obviously i am influenced by

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that shit as well it's not like i'm saying like oh

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i am the exception i do not buy into any of

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that shit i could see right through their plans it's like

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obviously i am also very influenced by those things as well and

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I feel like I almost like went into that hole of

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that shit and i hate it

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because it's just it's just feeding off of young people's insecurities to make profits for whatever

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that you're trying to sell me whether it's your cores

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or whether it's your peptides or injections i don't even know dude

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i feel like for femme presenting people especially online we just are so reduced to our looks

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like if you don't look conventionally attractive

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and then you're doing a third job people are gonna shit on you

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and people are gonna dog on you but it's different

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if a conventionally attractive person does it right and i just it's just

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so sad because like everyone online also feeds off of hate

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and it's just so unanimous it's just like no one is supporting each other

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and uplifting each other these days all it is these days is rage bait

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and just like people mobbing onto people it's just it's like mom mentality to hate like people

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or things or whatever the hell i actually kind of like my makeup today eyebrows are really dark but

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okay wait i rather fucked up wait you got me fucked

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up why wait wait wait wait this looks weird i don't

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know what kind of makeup i'm going for at all like

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like at all back in high school i never went to

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school without doing my makeup i would always wake up an hour

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or two before class starts now it already takes me like an hour to get to school

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and then i have to wake up another hour and a half before that to get ready and it literally

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killed me and i was like

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so subconscious i was like i can't go to school without any on makeup no one will recognize me

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and people are gonna judge me and da da da da da

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but no one actually gives a fuck like in reality no one actually gives a fuck

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but i was just so in my head i was

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so in my head about that i was so convinced

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that everyone hated me and everyone thought that was ugly

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because sometimes i still feel that way sometimes i still feel that way for sure

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because that shit sticks with you and it doesn't go away

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oh wait i didn't do my lashes another thing was i tried every single eyelid tape eyelid glue

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eyelid whatever the hell

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and then i opted for eyelid glue during middle school years

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every day every morning I would glue my eyelids basically together to look like it has a double eyelid crease

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and then in high school I started just using tape

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and then full full-on makeup

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but back in middle school I only did my foundation I did my foundation on my cheeks

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but I never did it on my forehead where I actually had acne

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because I was like oh my god it's gonna make it worse

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and then I just I just look like a half-boiled egg like this part was like cooked

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and this part was like shiny boily

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and shit other part was just like just like baked I

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was like damn I saw a picture of me on like

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snapchat like I took like a snapchat photo back then with my old friend

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and then it was just my shiny shiny cheek and then my forehead that's completely unblended it was just

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and it was like crusty like looking back on it it's like funny you know like we all have like

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that makeup fail stage because it's not easy to do makeup i literally spend

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so much time researching practicing to get to the skill level

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that i'm at now

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and i still don't think i am as good as a lot of cosplayers

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because oh my god the chinese cosplayers they're crazy i love watching their tutorials

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because it's so intriguing because it's like art and you're the canvas

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i don't really have a clear message for this video i

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guess it's just me talking about how i feel these days

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and just being perceived online i just feel like there's like a lot of pressure to look a certain way

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and sometimes i feel like i just feel like a fraud i'm not gonna I just feel like a fraud

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because of the face filters and just like my makeup

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because it can be quote unquote deceiving however you want to look at it

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but to me it's just something for me to feel better about myself with

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and it shouldn't be anyone else's business obviously but um

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when you have a lot of people watching you kind of people make it their business

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and it's hard for me to not pay attention to what people say

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and I personally just keep reinforcing that idea in my head that I am not what everyone thinks that I am.

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Everyone's complimenting me and shit, but I'm like, no, that's not who I am.

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I don't feel like that.

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I don't look like that.

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And then I just feel so deceitful, but I don't even know what I look like.

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Cameras distort your face.

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Mirrors also sometimes have a distortion, but for the most part, mirrors are pretty accurate of what you look like.

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But every single time I see, like, pretty girls online taking photos and they look so good

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and then when I open up my camera roll

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and then I look at myself I'm like damn damn this

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is not what I thought I'd look like I'll take a picture

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and then it's just like it doesn't look like how it looked like on there

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and I was just like why don't I look like that

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and then I just stopped taking pictures of myself because I felt

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so so in my head about myself

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and obviously the logical thing is just fake it till you make it I know that's how it usually goes.

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And yet, I don't really have the strength to fake it.

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Because it also takes a lot of energy, right?

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So yeah, it's learning to love yourself and to accept these things about yourself is a challenge.

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And if you ever get any cosmetic procedures, make sure that you're doing it for yourself.

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And not because of anyone else.

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You know?

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So definitely sit on that for years because

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when i got my eyes done i sat on

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that for many many many years anything else i want in

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the future possibly i will also sit on it for years

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because we do change we do change sometimes you grow into accepting yourself

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and sometimes that might not be that might not happen for you

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so then just do what you gotta do you know

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if that's what makes you happy you should go for it

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but if it's just something

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that you feel pressure to do i don't suggest it i

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don't suggest altering your face to make others happy you

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know i haven't put on lashes in

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a bit i do feel kind of i don't know

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if i feel pretty i don't know if i feel pretty i feel different i don't know if I feel pretty.

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I'm gonna draw on bottom lashes.

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Sometimes I definitely think, oh, if I didn't look like this or if I didn't present myself in a certain way, no one will watch my videos.

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And you guys clicked on it because you probably thought, oh wow, this girl, she looks kind of cool or she looks kind of pretty.

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And then you're like, oh, she's really mentally ill or maybe I like her personality.

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And then that's what I said.

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But I felt like, I don't it's just like a very sociological thing beauty standards

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and everything and it's also ingrained in patriarchy it's all systems all systems

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that bind us into like this shit that we fucking hate

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but we ultimately can't really change much but um yeah there's no solution

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there is no solution i'm not a philosopher by any means i'm literally just a girl on the internet

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a girl on the internet

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that is mad insecure i'm trying to do my makeup today to try to stream

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because I haven't streamed in two weeks

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because I fucking fucking hated myself still hate myself

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but I don't want to I don't want to keep saying

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that I don't want to keep saying I hate myself

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because you are what you eat you are what you think

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so I don't want to keep saying

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that you know I'm gonna try to stop the self-deprecating jokes

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like I'm gonna kill myself like no I'm not gonna say

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that anymore I'm gonna start saying I'm gonna shit myself that's a better better way to

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stop the negativity and it's more humorous I'd say if maybe maybe you don't think so but I think so Wait,

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I feel like I like my makeup today I'm looking at myself in the mirror I'm like, wait a minute Is the baddie coming back?

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Maybe it's my eyebrows Or maybe it's my hairstyle Because my bangs have been really, really freaking weird lately I was thinking about also cutting my hair for this video

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but i like low-key did my hair before i started the makeup

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so then like it's like easier somewhat easier

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or else i'll look like mega mega chopped

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and i don't think i want to put myself in

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that position because i did a i did a youtube live where i did

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that and then people are like oh my god holy fucking chopped

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and then i was like okay i'm fucking privating this shit.

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Hell, freak you guys.

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Freak y'all.

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I'm just using humor to cope.

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What blush should I use?

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This blush is actually so pretty.

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My boy.

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Oh my gosh, she's so pretty.

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Not me.

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The blush.

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I'm gonna put a lot on.

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wow wow wow wow

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and this is oh i just i just broke it wow

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okay um that's not what i intended to do i'm just

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gonna take this here it's like a highlighting thinking about okay

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all right um okay thank you can i close you

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can you close this thank you very much wait why do

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i look kind of cute wait am i coming back how

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do i style my bangs that's my biggest like dilemma okay

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i'm gonna try to curl this okay i'm gonna put this in a little curler for a few minutes

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and I'll come back and show you guys what it looks like.

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Usually this method doesn't work for me, but I've been growing out my bangs, so I don't know.

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Let's see.

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Heee, who are you?

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Okay, let's do the reveal.

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Okay, this looks a little questionable.

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I feel like that one guy with that one emo bang

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Oh hell no How do I make this not look like this

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Yeah the bangs That did not work

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um now i have barcode bangs yay help help help i'm gonna use um hair mascara

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and see what i can do to fix this fuck please do something can i like get

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that giselle look let me bring the light over okay this

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is this is not this is not this is not flattering by any means okay we're not doing that okay here

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okay i'm sorry for dropping y'all sorry okay

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let me bring the other light over i have this this

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other light ah wow i am mesmerizing y'all oh my god i am blinding myself This is the perfect lighting.

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This is like the perfect makeup influencer lighting.

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Oh wait, I look kind of cute.

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Who are you?

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Okay, sorry.

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This is so cringe.

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I feel so cringed out.

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Sola's right here judging me.

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She's like, oh, what the freak?

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She scratched me.

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This is what happens.

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Hey, why are you tracking me?

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Baby, why are you scratching me?

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You scratched me.

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I didn't scratch you.

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Okay.

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Leave.

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Leave and never come back.

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Okay, I was thinking about dressing up like in something cute.

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But I feel too awkward to dress up.

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I don't know why I feel too awkward to dress up.

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I'm literally in my own room.

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Like, why am I so afraid?

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Why am I so afraid?

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I want some cute pics, but I feel so afraid to be in my own skin that I can't even do this shit in my own room.

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Like, what?

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What?

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What?

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come on okay okay fuck it fuck it okay fuck okay too much profanity some people say

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that i have too much profanity in my videos

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and i'm really really sorry that that's so part of

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and ingrained into my language but okay i'll stop being a fucking pussy

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and start doing it i'll change let's see how i feel

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afterwards hey y'all this is awkward okay well i need to tie the back wait i feel pretty

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Awwww I haven't felt this pretty in like so long Do I try to take pictures of myself?

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I think the last time I felt this pretty was when I turned myself into a doll Wait,

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I feel pretty again Awwww I feel so sad but also

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so good but not so good but like sad but like nostalgic Like I don't know Awwww

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thank you guys for watching this video guys i need one

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of you guys to like put me in like those edits

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and like boost my ego and confidence or something

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because damn why do i look kind of good shit this is

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so weird also i hate the way

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that my hair is like spiky like it's like why is there like a middle middle thing here

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If anyone actually has tips about hair, please help.

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I just want this to, like, stay on one side and not, like, do this weird thing here.

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No, stop doing that.

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Stop it.

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Stop.

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I command you to stop.

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Anyways, thank you guys for watching.

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I am going to go stream now.

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It's my first time back in a while.

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So I hope it goes well.

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Let's hope.

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And thank you for watching my video once again.

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Take care of yourselves, guys.

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Take care.

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It's NalongHuman here, signing out.

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Bye-bye.

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Oh my gosh, you look so stupid.

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Vocabulary and speaking notes for this lesson

This B1 speaking lesson is built on the video “my experience with growing up "ugly"”. This video has 472 sentences and 5322 words to shadow. The speech runs for 32:09. The speaker talks at a natural 166 words per minute, close to everyday conversation. 82% of the words are among the 3,000 most common in English; the rest is worth studying before you start.

Key vocabulary in this video

The 15 most advanced words in the video, with pronunciation and meaning:

Word	Pronunciation	Meaning
eyelid noun	/ˈaɪ.lɪd/	A thin skin membrane that covers and moves over an eye.
acne noun	/ˈækni/	A skin condition, usually of the face, that is common in adolescents. It is characterised by red pimples, and is caused by the inflammation of sebaceous glands…
scratch verb	/skɹæt͡ʃ/	To rub a surface with a sharp object, especially by a living creature to remove itching with nails, claws, etc.
bang noun	/ˈbæŋ/	A sudden percussive noise.
chop verb	/t͡ʃɑp/	To cut into pieces with short, vigorous cutting motions.
eyebrow noun	/ˈaɪˌbɹaʊ/	The hair that grows over the bone ridge above the eye socket.
tutorial noun	/ˌtjuːˈtɔːɹɪəl/	A self-paced learning exercise; a lesson prepared so that a student can learn at their own speed or convenience.
extroverted adjective	/ˈɛkstɹəˌvəɹtɪd/	Turned or thrust outwards, especially
lash noun	/læʃ/	The thong or braided cord of a whip, with which the blow is given.
insecurity noun		A lack of security; uncertainty.
blush noun	/ˈblʌʃ/	An act of blushing; a pink or red glow on the face caused by embarrassment, shame, shyness, love, etc.
meta adjective	/ˈmɛtə/	Self-referential; structured analogously (structured by relationships), but at a higher level.
glue noun	/ɡlu/	A hard gelatin made by boiling bones and hides, used in solution as an adhesive; or any sticky adhesive substance.
anyways adverb	/ˈɛn.iˌweɪz/	Anyway, anyhow, in any case.
filter noun	/ˈfɪltɚ/	A device which separates a suspended, dissolved, or particulate matter from a fluid, solution, or other substance; any device that separates one substance from…

Phrasal verbs you will hear

Word	Pronunciation	Meaning
come back verb		To return to a place.
dress up verb		To put on special or fancy clothes.
pull off verb		To remove by pulling.
wake up verb	/ˌweɪk ˈʌp/	To stop sleeping; to awake.
clear up verb	/klɪəˈɹʌp/	To clarify, to correct a misconception.
come out verb	/ˌkʌm ˈaʊt/	To be discovered; to be revealed.
fall apart verb		To disintegrate, to break into pieces.
go away verb		To depart or leave a place.

Sentences worth repeating

Short, complete lines from the video that you can reuse in everyday conversation:

I don't feel like that.
What blush should I use?
Hey, why are you tracking me?
Baby, why are you scratching me?
Why am I so afraid?

Grammar in this video

The structures the speaker uses most, with the exact words from the video:

Structure	In the video
Present perfect continuous have/has been + -ing — an action that started earlier and is still going on	you've been catfishing · i've been saying · I've been growing
Present perfect have/has + past participle — a past action that still matters now	i've mentioned · haven't put · haven't streamed
Passive voice be + past participle — the focus is on what happens, not who does it	was born · being perceived · is burnt
Past continuous was/were + -ing — an action in progress at a moment in the past	was looking · was just sitting · was just pretending

Pronunciation to watch

The speaker uses 171 contractions and reduced forms, such as I'm, don't, didn't. Say them the short way, as you hear them.

The “sh” and “zh” sounds: lash /læʃ/, blush /ˈblʌʃ/, conventionally /kənˈvɛnʃənəli/, gosh /ɡɑːʃ/, socially /ˈsoʊʃəli/
Long words — get the stress right: extroverted /ˈɛkstɹəˌvəɹtɪd/, conventionally /kənˈvɛnʃənəli/, profanity /pɹəˈfænɪti/, genuinely /ˈd͡ʒɛn.ju.ɪn.li/, assimilation /əˌsɪməˈleɪʃən/

How to practise with this video

Listen to the whole video once without speaking and note the words you do not know.
Start at 0.75× speed, shadow it sentence by sentence, then go back to normal speed once it feels easy.
Record yourself and compare with the original, paying attention to words like eyelid, acne, scratch.

What is the Shadowing Technique?

Shadowing is a science-backed language learning technique originally developed for professional interpreter training and popularized by polyglot Dr. Alexander Arguelles. The method is simple but powerful: you listen to native English audio and immediately repeat it out loud — like a shadow following the speaker with just a 1–2 second delay. Unlike passive listening or grammar drills, shadowing forces your brain and mouth muscles to simultaneously process and reproduce real speech patterns. Research shows it significantly improves pronunciation accuracy, intonation, rhythm, connected speech, listening comprehension, and speaking fluency — making it one of the most effective methods for IELTS Speaking preparation and real-world English communication.

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